Tuesday, October 12, 2010

One step forward, two steps back

My best friend is currently potty training her little one and I keep hearing her say, "It's like we take one step forward and two steps back." Frankly, that is how I've been feeling in my life recently and I have decided to liken my current progress in life to a toddler. Here is the basic premise (for your entertainment....LOL)....
(1) I am faced with an issue that presents a challenge and all of the sudden, I'm like a toddler facing a transition time. I'm not READY for a change yet. I'm doing just fine with whatever I'm doing. Why are you taking away my comfy, cozy activity and switching me to something new and scary. I panic first.
(2) I try to talk my way out of it. Just like a toddler asks for five more minutes, I'm struggling and asking for a little more time to enjoy my cozy space in the here and now. Why MUST it happen right now? Can't it wait another year or two? ;)
(3) I throw a fit. Yep, that's right. No matter how many times I face transitions, I still go through this step nearly every time. I drag my feet and go limp. I scream and cry and yell that I don't wanna go through this. I want to remain where I'm at. I want to skip the hard stuff. Logically I know the hard stuff makes you the person you are, but comfy cozy toddler Heather doesn't want that!
(4) I accept it indignantly and pout. Yep, again, I pout. I pout because I'm not getting my way and I swear I'll just go with the flow. I still make my attempts to get my "five more minutes" but they're less pronounced.
(5) I find that the change isn't nearly as scary as I thought. Yes, my super-organization and overly particular self always ends up finding that what I was so scared of isn't that bad at all...and maybe, just maybe, it's kind of fun and interesting. Who knew?
Yes, life is one step forward and two steps back. It's scary and exciting and throws me curve balls on a daily basis. Still, I press forward and say that I'm ready for whatever's next.....well at least until I actually have to deal with it.